First day back to work after maternity leave

So ya it was my first day back to work today. It feels strange. I am torn. I love my job but I also LOVE my baby. It was hard to leave him today. I thought I could be tough and get through this without being too emotional. Nope. Twenty minutes before I had to leave it hit me and I started to cry. I did not want to leave Maison. People would tell me that it was going to so hard when I had to go back but I didn't think it would be this hard. I keep telling myself that sometimes you have to do what you have to do for your family to survive. I really hope that I can do this and be strong and get us through this difficult time in our lives. The one best thing through out this whole thing is that I have Jace to watch our son and not have to put him in daycare.